To Answer the Question of Why Im not in School for Photography

 So in the past few weeks, I have been asked just a few times on why I haven't gone to back to school for Photographer. It's not that I don't want to. Well Okay. Sighs. I guess I am going to have to explain this one.

I do want to go to school for Photography. I really do. But I don't. I love Photography. To me there is no better way for me to Relax. & There lies problem number one of me going to school for it. I love Photography, It isn't a Job for me. Its a hobby, something I do, just for me. (Well I take pictures for other people, but I do it because I want too, or have been talked into it.) I don't want to lose the love of it. I don't want it to become something I HAVE TO DO. I want it to stay something I love doing. *Like Christmas this weekend, a few people where surprised that I didn't take as many pictures as I normally do.*

         Another reason I haven't gone into Photography, sighs,The term Socially Awkward comes to mind. I know I am awkward towards people. I know I am. & I know my friends if reading this are laughing to themselves because they are use to me bossing them around, moving them to where I think the photos would look best at. But they are friends, People who I've been able to get over this damn shyness with. I can't do it with a bunch of strangers. Trust me. I've tried. Im not the kind of girl that is okay in a group of people, being in the center.  Shy doesn't even begin to cover it. It takes me forever to crawl out of this shell that I've built up. I really need to get over it & to be fair I'm trying. I really am. But Awkward suits me......... The word about sums it up.


There's a few more reasons. Like Money. That's an issue. Ummmm, I guess another reason would be I don't think my pictures are all that great. Just saying.... I do it for me. I like it & yea.

Christmas & Snow!!!

But sadly they did not fall on the same day.

                 Christmas this year was really great. Santa was super nice to John & I this year. John has been glued to his Wii. & I can dance merrily around the house in my very own New England Pats Jersey. =) We had a great day with our friends & our family. I was really excited that one of our dear friends was able to make it home in time for Christmas. That in its self made it worth it. It truly was a Christmas Miracle!!!!!!!!! Welcome Home is all I am going to say.

             Then around 1:30 A.M. the snow came in. <3 It makes me miss the North. A lot. But It was amazing to see it, to walk in it, & of course to play in it!!!! John had a blast, & we learned that our newest Member of our Family, Sammie, LOVES the snow as much as I do. Of course I think everyone I live around thinks I am insane. *Not that, that is anything new....* Because of course the Snow Started falling around 1:12 & by 1:30 A.M I'm walking the dog. I stayed up late just to see the snow start. Of course I spent most of the day *Between 7 this morning, and 6 O'clock tonight playing in it. Off and on.* John had a blast throwing Snow Balls at his daddy & I.

This weekend all in all was pretty amazing. It might have started off really crappy, but it only got better. =)

Been A While.

I noticed that I hadn't posted a update since last month. Sorry. Things have been kind of crazy around here with Best friend coming to visit. & Getting ready for Christmas!!! But I am still alive & I will update more later... Right now I have too much engery to sit still at the computer.



*Starbucks DoubleShots should not be drank at 8:00 p.m Just Saying!!!*

Back!!!

Oh yeah,, I'm back on my own computer. I can't even explain how excited I am to be able to sit here on my own computer & type. My keyboard. O, have I missed my keyboard & my pictures..!!!!! It feels wonderful. I can't even explain. You go so long with our own & then have to go to using someone Else's computer. NOT COOL!!!!!

I could have kissed the guy at the computer store if he had more of a personality. Oops. It was like talking to a computer.... *eye roll goes here*. Thomas laughed at me. Because I told him & the dude at the computer store that they were my hero's. O my computer how I have missed thee.

Thanksgiving....

Thanksgiving this year was once again Bittersweet.  It was a long but fun filled day. I spent most of the day with my friend Marilyn. I  hang out at her house while keeping track of the game. (Yea Baby the Pats totally kicked Lion Butt!!) Then we took off down to grandma's house for a little bit & then back to our friends house for there Thanksgiving. All in all it was a good day.

I guess I just dont like this time of year because of Daddy. Its really hard. Maybe next year will be easier. But with him passing away, his birthday & Thanksgiving all within the same week, its a hard time. (Daddy's favorite Holiday was Thanksgiving.) But It was good to remember the good times with him.



Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Day Daddy!!!

I can't believe a year has already passed us by

Its been hard without you

& tomorrow is going to even that much harder

But This year Im thankful for all the memories

that you left us with.

As much as it hurts,

I know that You're better off,

& are looking down upon us

with a grin on your face.

Enjoy your Birthday

&

Your Thanksgiving.

Today was hard, harder then Saturday. We took five balloons out to the gravesite & let them go. Each & every one reached the sky. It was bitter sweet... I know that this should be getting easier, but It doesn't seem like it. Theres not a day that doesn't go by that I'll think about him, or want to cry when I see a picture of him...

He might not have been my real father, but I couldn't have asked for a better father in law to have. He was an amazing man. && I wish he knows how much we miss him & How much we love him & think about it.



I made it through.

I made it through Saturday. It was killer, but I did it. I had some amazing friends to help me through it. Now if I can only get through the 24-25!!! I cried some, & laughed some & remembered some amazing memories. I just didn't think it would hurt this much after a year. I was wrong. I was really really really wrong.

I guess the saying is true. You never get over the pain, you just learn how to live with it.

Almost A Year.

=( & I dont know if I can cope with it.

Im trying really hard, but its not so easy. I miss him.. Alot. This week has been really rough on me. & Its all I can do to keep from breaking down.. I heard that song by Carrie Underwood last week & it just all came rushing back. It was the first time I had listened to it since the day we laid him to rest. My god daughter did an amazing job on it.

But it hurts, & it hurts alot.... Im trying to keep a smile on my face, & be happy & bouncy.. But really all I want to do is cancel Thanksgiving & Curl up in bed & sleep until Dec. 1st.




I miss you Daddy....

A Forced Break

Eh, I hate this. Im being forced into taking a break from the net. My laptops charger kicked the bucket. & Stupid me didn't know it so I also killed the battery to it. Im having to borrow computers & after having my very own, no one else allowed to touch it, computer. This is killing me. Blah.

So this might be the last post for a little while, (Unless my hubby pays to get me a new charger SOON) So im going to leave you with a few pictures of my beautiful god-daughter & her boyfriend.

I love how these pictures turned out. They didn't want me to take them, but I got my way & Im really glad that I was able to get the pictures done. They all came out great. Its not often that I can honestly say that theres little to no pictures that I dont trash in a shoot like this.. This one theres so far NONE!!!

 

Going to do Good.

               Thats my plan for today. I plan on taking a walk. Yes I know its freezing, but it will be O.K. I also plan on looking into getting a gym membership. =) I need to do something to keep me busy durning the days, & help me get back into being healthy. There's also a few classes Ive been looking into taking. Like dance or something.... (don't ask what the or something is.)

             John brought home his first ever report card. I can't believe it. I wanted to cry. My baby is growing up soo friggin fast. WAY to fast. He also brought home yet another yellow smiley & a broken coat. YAY me... So I have to see if I can find someone who can fix the zipper on it, because thats a friggin REAL LEATER coat. (His grandmother bought it last year for him as a gift because he fell in love with it.) Eh...


Anyway I might post some pictures later, IM not sure If I am going to be taking the camera with me when I go for my walk or not. & I have friends coming for dinner tonight. So I need to get my butt moving & get my housework done. =) Im soo proud of myself, Ive blown if off all week.


*Side note- Please understand I have ADHD & OPCD... Its a very odd mix to have.. Really friggin odd. So For me to blow of my housework for once is a good thing. The Deal On OCPD *

Music, Rain & Naps!!

                 So Im sitting outside, (under my carport) enjoying the rain. I love the rain most days. Its relaxing & peaceful. If I thought I could get away with it, Id go for a walk, but I don't want to end up sick...So Im sitting here listen to music & trying to figure out what I am going to do with John when he comes home from school today. We can't go outside to play, since Its raining.. We played kickball for at least an hour yesterday afterschool. He brought home a green smiley face. Which is always a good thing.

I got sleep last night, & I took a nap today. which of course makes me feel bad since I didn't spend my morning with Thomas like I normally try to do. Oops. Eh, Tomorrow will be better. I  got a Starbucks engery shot... =)

Anyway no pictures today due to the rain.

3:00 Am

                  Yes you read that right. It said 3:00 am. Why 3:00 am, because thats the hour that I woke at... & Have been up since. Its a chilly rainy day. & Im hating being forced to stay in doors. How sad is that? Durning the summer when people want to go outside, I want to stay inside. Durning the cold weather, Im the one that wants to get out in it..


I really need to take a nap. *& Tried to but the phone kept ringing.*

Monday? Are you Sure?

Are you really sure today is Monday? Oh I mean I know it is. I had a Good day. A Good MONDAY!!! I'm pretty damn happy about that. There was nothing special about this day. Nothing out of the blue happened. I did get to take the camera out for a walk. It was relaxing until I got chased down by some random mutt. Really? Can't you please keep your dogs in the yard or on chains if they are mean little yapping pains in the butts? Please.

Of course I got some odd looks for walking down the road with a camera in my hand, but I Like walking. It helps relax me, & its good for the soul. I guess its because its kind of getting cold down here. *Which in case you are reading this & wondering. I love the cold. I guess its the New England-er in me.* I didn't get as many shots as I hoped I would, but I got a few.

Happy Halloween!!!

Happy Halloween. I hope everyone had a great one. I love this time of year. All the cute little kids, & The candy. Who wouldn't like it.

This year Thomas got to take John out & I stayed at home to pass out candy. I ended up running out. *Doesn't help that I was giving it out in Handfuls does it?*  & then my best friend came & kidnapped me & Force fed my steak. Yummy. WHat would I do without my friends.

John was Woody from Toy Story... As was he dog. They both looked Cute.

& then Today we went to our next door neighbor's church. We couldn't stay long because I had to get back to a friends house to mop his floors like I said I would do all week... Oops. Well to be truthful he's a truck driver & is barely ever home so that had a lot to do with it.

It seems like hell week as finally ended. Yay. I had a really great weekend. A much needed weekend. I think I would have cried my eyes out if It wasn't for some of the worlds greatest friends. I don't know what I would do without them.

No P.J's for me Today

             So My plans of curling up & going back to sleep are a bust. I got sleep last night, Which normally would be a wonderful thing. & It was. I woke up feeling great... & then since I had time before John needed to be up for school I log into my facebook.. Mistake number one.

                Got an email from a friend. Our children all ride the bus together. & John has the biggest crush on her daughter. The Biggest. Well I guess yesterday for no reason what's so ever John thought it would be okay to tell her that he was going to punch her brother in the face. Im pissed. I don't know where the heck he's learning how to talk like that. & why he thinks its okay. The poor boy has been trying to be friends with John for a long time & this is what John's telling him? OMG!!!!

So I make him tell them both that he's sorry, & I feel like crap. Where the hell do they learn this kind of stuff? Really? I know I was hellion in my past, but since I moved N.C I haven't made but a few threats to punch someone in their face & Never threated John. Now a days Im pretty calm & If I need to vent, I tell someone I'm gonna shove something up their nose...

Eh,

Mistake Number two, I made myself a cup of coffee. I know I know I really need the lay off that junk, because it makes me super hyper.  =/ But my plans are to have a GOOD day...

Forget everything thats going on.. Hang out with a friend, cuddle up to my husband, & just enjoy the day.



Lets hope that works out.



P.s I ended up with a bruise on my arm, & its really really small, but OMG it hurts like a son of a batch of cookies. =)

So.. This is how its going to be?

Hell, thats what this week as been. I am so ready for it to be Monday. Which says alot since I HATE Mondays. Truly hate them.

Monday- Had to get rid of my dog, Herc. I took it really hard. Still taking it really hard. Plus Made a fool out of myself in front of a bunch of people I really don't know.

Tuesday-Once again made a fool out of my self, OVER & OVER AGAIN!!! Lost at Pool, but finally was able to Laugh.
Wednesday- Computer's charger dies, fighting with people, && Once again Embarrass myself in front of the people who live on my street. Throwing up all over the place. YAY!!! Thankfully My friend Jen loves me enough to come & see me & cheer me up.

Thursday- Woke up feeling like a Western Star ran over me & then backed up to re-run over me.... Took the dog out for a walk, to come home to find that Thomas dog  knocked out the screen on my front window & was running loose. Please I can just beat the dog. pretty please. & O yea Made a fool out of myself yet again, Thomas thought it would be funny to watch me scream & run from bugs...



Im not looking forward to tomorrow at all. Not one bit. I think as soon as John gets off the school bus, I will put my P.J's back on & Go back to sleep & sleep all day, & only wake up when John comes home. (Not really. My friend might be coming back over..)


This week really needs to just stop. Really Karma? Really what the hell did I do to get this shit? You know what I say Screw Ya.

What the Heck?

Really is it national make Catie feel like Hell week or what?!?!?

Beautiful Day & Not a Damned Thing to Do.

O.M.G its a perfect day. Its beautiful out & I can't figure out something to do. I sent Thomas & John off to a tractor pull. (Sorry but I didn't like them before. I guess I'm just not Southern enough for them yet.) I've cleaned my house, Took some pictures, did my hair & Make up. Im bored. Can you tell?

I've been thinking of calling up a friend to see if they want to go play some pool somewhere. It would give me something to do. Even though I royally still suck at the game. I've gotten a little better. I really wonder why the heck we all stopped playing. I guess things just happened that way... Who knows.

Anyway Halloween is next weekend & I still don't know if I am going to dress up or not. Hmmm. Something to think about I guess. I haven't dressed up since the year I had John...


Well I'm off, I guess I am going to go curl up & watch Beauty & the Beast. *Thomas bought it for me on DVD & I have still yet to watch it.* Idk though. I rather not turn off the music. even if it is loud enough to wake the dead.


Enjoy your Saturday Everyone.

Where Did He Go?!?

               Ever since school started my child has been a totally different child. Lying, getting into trouble, not listening to me. Its insane & all I can seem to ask is where is my child? Where did he go? Where did my well mannered, well behaved, mostly listened to me, child go too? What hellion has taken over in his place?

           Tonight is school open house, so hopefully I can talk with John's teacher & figure out what is going on & why he keeps on getting into trouble at school as well as home. Im not liking this & for anyone who knows my child, THIS IS UNLIKE HIM.



I'll keep ya'll updated

Sitting Here...

         I'm sitting outside in the dark, smoking & enjoying the peaceful night air... Fog is rolling in & all I can think about is that this would make a good setting for a horror story. Too bad I haven't written any stories since I don't know, High school maybe. I still say If I would have finished at least two of my "stories" I would have more money than Stephine Meyer right now. Just saying.
        Today was a day of Rain. And anything that could go wrong has gone wrong. First the dog wouldn't stop barking & then he got out of the yard not once, not twice but three times. Having to hunt down a little barking beanie baby in the rain is not my idea of fun by the way....
       Eh, Im so ready for bed, but I can't yet. I've got about another hour to kill first. I thought about editing the photographs I took from today. But I just don't have the drive. No really I don't have my extra hard drive right now & Im just too lazy to go into my bedroom to get it. If I go into the bed room I know my nice, warm Cal-King bed will call to me. Which isn't as good as it sounds, as someone has to wake the sleeping man on the couch to get up to go to work.
      So instead Im just sitting here, outside, Not listening to the dogs on the street bark.. Yay. Im sorry if  you're reading this & Im just going on & on. Forgive me. But remember at least I am updating this somewhat.




      John's school pictures come out tomorrow. I can't wait to see them. Hopefully they have come out good. That way I can send them out to friends & family. I think I might scan them on to the computer so I can upload them here. I don't know yet how much those bad boys are going to cost me. I know its not going to be as cheap as it would have been if I had just done them myself. But Its his first school picture.
        Speaking of Schools. I really hate the cost of it. Its like every single time I turn around I am having to spend money. Well not me per say but Thomas. Oops.  Hopefully tomorrow nothing else gets sent home but those pictures.
        John is doing okay in school. Still having a problem with Talking. I guess we all know where he gets that from huh? Oops again. I guess its all just part of my charm. Its funny though how many people seem to forget that Im not always talkative..... third oops of the night.

              Okay I guess I've gone on long enough. So I'll leave you with a few pictures I took today......

Alright Its Time to Buckle Down.

I just remember that this was to be a blog & photography of a stay at home wife & mom. Oops. I guess I kind of forgot about that part.

While I have been taking pictures like CRAZY, I just haven't been blogging. Eh, what can I say. OoO I know I have writers block. Do you believe that? Anyway, I guess Things are about the same. I am really enjoying the fall weather. I proved to the people that live around me that I am NOT a vampire. I don't burn *or glitter* when I step into the sunlight. I think that's a major plus. Right?

Life has been quiet. Really quiet. I don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. John's in school so I find alot of time on my hands. It sure does make it easier to get pictures. but still really quiet. Im really glad that Thomas' invested in an Ipod for me. I think he is too!!

The Changing of the Seasons, The Changing of Life.

(I posted this on cafemom a few weeks ago.... I wanted to put it here...)

So this weeks Journal question is about my favorite season...

        Normally that would be a simple cut & dry answer. Fall. I love the changing of the leaves, the crunchy sound the leaves make when you walk on them. I love the nice weather. Being able to take my little guy out for a walk to see what kinds and colors we can find of leaves. Watching all the children in my area trick or treating. The smell of Pecan pies cooking, Turkeys baking.... Good hardy soups in the crock pot....

        This year though it is going to be very bitter sweet for us. Last year was hard, but it was nice. We got to enjoy all of this one last time with my father in law, so also enjoyed fall. He got to see his only grandchild come running through the house, to where he was laying in bed, & share candy.... This year he's not going to be here.

         When I bake Pecan Pie, he's not going to be there to Joke about Having to do a trial pie just for him to taste.... Or steal half the pecans (he thinks he did, but I always had extra.) There will be no sharing all the good candy with Papa this year.... There will be no turkeys for him either.

          It hurts, but I know its for the best. As much as I hate to say that. He is truly better off. After battling cancer for three years, he held out for as long as he could.

        But this fall, as sweet as it is, to have back. It hurts. I know whats coming & I dont know how to deal with it. In just a few short months He will be gone for a whole year. That hurts. Alot. He shouldn't have left. He was so young, and a good person...

      Nov 20th will make a year.... Thanksgiving will never be the same. It was his favorite holiday... & Even though it will never be the same. I look forward to it. To knowing that people who loved him will be sharing stories about him...



              Last year Fall felt BAD. It was as if the season it's self brought the death of my father in law.. I know thats not true, but I couldn't help but notice for the first time that Fall brought the death of butterflies & flowers.... Leaves & Roses.... It was an evil season & I knew before it happened that my father in law wouldn't make it to see Christmas, as hard as I wished for him to, As much as I begged the gods, or god, or whoever you believe in... I knew with fall our lives where going to change..

     It took me all winter to start growing out of the haze I was in. I didn't do anything that I didn't have to do. I refused to even take out my camera but once. When I went on a trip my father planned for me. Even then as much as I enjoyed it, & I was excited about it, the loss was still too there.

      When Spring started showing, I started healing. I took my camera back out & would spend hours behind the lens. Enjoying seeing everything being reborn again. I enjoyed nursing my roses back from the harsh cruel winter. I started to feel better, behind that camera lens. It woke me up... I felt almost human again. The pain was still there. It will always be there. I don't think the pain ever really goes away, I think we as humans just learn how to deal with the pain...



      I smiled brighter & laughed harder. I remembered the spring before. The fun we had, the good & the bad. We took flowers to the grave & I LAUGHED at the grave, because I knew if Daddy was alive he'd be bitching that I cut roses from my own rose bushes to bring to him. He hated that. He much rather had store bought, that way I didn't "ruin" my beautiful bushes in his words. I never listened & I cut him roses anyway.



      With spring came new, new roses, new laughter, new life...... It helped to deal me. Or at least I like to think that Spring & my camera started healing me. I know I have a long road ahead of me. My whole family does.
 Even though this fall is going to hurt, I think we'll be alright. We'll remember. We'll laugh, We'll cry. We'll be together, honoring the life of a very simple country man who changed everything..


     So to answer the question fall and spring are my favorite seasons. They always have been, but this is the first year for them being my favorite seasons for a reason...















To Marvin T. Dorman. (11-24-51 to 11-20-2009) We'll always love you & We'll look at for the Brightest Star, because we know its you. We love you daddy, Happy Fall.

Well I didn't know that.

I suck at playing pool. =/

Im rather okay at Air Hockey. & My son takes after me..... WOOHOO.

Nothing Much Going On.

There is nothing new really going on. John of course is doing good in school. At least with the work. He's talking alot in class which is never a good thing, But he is working on that.

He loves school. Friday he was singing me all the songs that he's learning. YAY ME!!! All night... Non-stop.

Thomas is still working nights. It bothers me sometimes, but not too often. I miss having him to sleep next to me. You would think though with him working nights & John being in school he'd get more sleep durning the days. Nope.  Not my hubby.

I started to re-use my cafemom.com account. I like it, but omg the stupid fights about EVERYTHING on there. If I say the sky is blue someone somewhere will tell me no its pink....

Other news worthy things going on- I stopped biting my nails. I keep cutting my self though with my nails. So they might be gone in a few days.

Its finally getting cooler around here. YAY Nice fall weather... Too bad it also finally means rain & Poor John's allergies acting up.

Im thinking about taking a night course in photography at my local com. college. Still havent made my mind up on that one yet. I plan on looking into tomorrow when my eyes are more open.

& Im truly jealous of my cats.... They have it made. They get loved when they want to be loved on. Feed whenever they want... get to lay around & Be lazy.. & Even when they are in trouble, its hard to stay made at them....

Finally Something Thats Worth Writing About.

               I haven't really been updating my blog. I guess I've just been in a blogging funk.... Today I finally have a reason to blog.

The past two weeks, I have been going to bed around 12 just to wake up around 5:45 to get my little man up & used to getting up for school. Well all my hard, **Boring** work paid off. Today John started school. His very first day ever. He was a stay at home kid. No day cares, no pre-school. (He got tested to see if it was needed, I got told he'd be bored....Not worth it.)

             He did wonderfully.  He only got spoken to about not staying in his seat once he was done with his work. His teacher told me that he was very well mannered, very outgoing. She also said that he did what he was told when he was told, but just needed that helpful reminder about staying in his seat. I'm so very proud of him. I hope he keeps it up. (Trans- HE BETTER KEEP IT UP.!!!)

Sighs. All those days this week & last worrying for nothing.... He did well. No tears, no whining. Just wonderful... He really enjoyed his day. I don't think Ive ever seen him so excited for anything. This morning we stayed just long enough to watch him with his teacher put his things away. It broke my heart because when we walked away he had this look of OMG their leaving me. But he wiped his eyes & went on his way...

I think John's going to do great this year, he better. He needs to not only because mommy & daddy want him to, but because He wants too. I believe in helping your child through out their school years. Setting up good habits, like doing their home work at the kitchen table with no t.v. or Ipod's going. Making sure that you don't just give them the answer, but really truly help them understand what they are doing.

I also believe in setting those habits early, for when they get to Middle School or High School they are already set..... Kindergarten to me is the year that sets how the rest of his school will go. So we both need good habits.

Like waking up on time for school. Something Im still getting use too....

2 hours later.....

   And John & I are both covered in marker, Hes writing better & doing some basic math skills again. =) Hes gone to play on the computer, but for the past two hours we worked on his "workbooks". Hes so excited about school & he's loving the workbooks!!! I hope that he keeps it up.


I've got company coming for dinner... Around 6 so that means around 5:30 Ive got to start it, Which means from now until 4:00 I can mess around, come four I need to get my clothes put away, & the rest of my stuff done.


Blah

WorkBooks.

              I've always tried working with John. Teaching him his numbers, Letters, Colors & Shapes. But I'm not a teacher, I'm not always willing to sit there through his mistakes, but I try. Hes my baby, & I love him, but sometimes when he plays stupid I really get upset. That's normal. I know it. But it still makes me feel bad for getting bad at him when hes playing stupid.

               So with that, We've gotten him workbooks to work on to get his ready for school. Teaching him his writing has been my biggest nightmare, until I got these "workbooks". He wants to trace them & get them right so he can get checks & make 100's. Its cute. but sad because he feels bad when he gets one wrong. Did I do that to him?  Ive been telling him its okay to make mistakes as long as he tries, that Mommy & daddy don't get mad when he tries hard, we get upset when he knows it, but thinks its funny to act like he doesn't. He seems to understand. Today we did some math, he learned how to write his numbers. IN A DAY. Ive been trying to teach him to write for over a year. Go figure. I'm proud of my little monster. We've been working for about an hour.  And hes been doing really great. I'm proud of him. We just finished the workbook one & are going onto workbook 2. they are Pre-school workbooks, but still. I didn't think to teach John some of this stuff.  Thursday we should start on the Kindergarten workbooks.

I need to still work on him with the sounds the letters make. But other than that, hes pretty much set for School.



Sitting here with John makes me have a great respect for teachers of pre-schoolers, & kindergarten kids. Like my friend over  at http://www.aswewriteit.blogspot.com/  Katherine. She taught art to kids John's age. I dont think I could handle it. Sometimes just one is more then enough.

More Quiet?

Today was an almost perfect day. I know that there is no such thing as perfect, but sometimes, we get close. Today we went to Karma Salon & Day Spa. To get a hair cuts. My good friend LaRetta works there. John went first, & although it doesn't seem like he got a hair cut, he did. Of course it had to be styled in a FoHawk. Hes something else. The rest of the day was spent chilling out & enjoying just being us. The men played the Xbox, then somehow or another my little man talked his daddy into grilling steaks. So off to the store we went.

The rest of the night was fun. Outside playing, taking pictures & grilling. It was Amazing. It wasn't hot or really to hot. I had alot of fun. I forget sometimes just how much fun we can have, just sitting at home.

& of course Im looking forward to tomorrow morning. For as long as I can remember we all climb in bed on Sunday mornings. (Dog & cats too!!) & just veg out, play, tickle. Im really going to miss those Sunday Mornings when John gets too big.

Good Morning.

Good Morning Fellow Bloggers. I haven't blogged much this week. I started at least two a day, & then of course something came up. The cat was sick, the child needed something, or my favorite the Hubby needed dinner. Sighs.  So this moring when I got up bright & early because my black lab, Herc, needed to go out,( & for some reason thought that I was just the right person to do it,) I thought I'd blog. There hasn't been much of anything going on.

 This weekend is tax free weekend on all clothes & school stuff. Lucky for me all I needed to get left for John was some more jeans. He needed some. Thats it. He's all right to go off to school.  While I on the other hand am not looking forward to it much. =/

What can I say after five years of almost always being a stay at home mom. (I really dont count my waitressing Job I had going on there for a while. Because well the job sucked, it was only a few hours a night, & well John never seemed to miss me. ) I'm not sure what I will do with all that time to myself. Its going to be nice. Thomas should be home most days, but he'll be sleeping. I'll be able to get all the housework done nice & bright & early. Thats a major plus..... Isnt?

I haven't been doing much with my camera. I guess I just haven't felt like it. The last true photographys I took were great, but I haven't been paid for them yet. So of course I really shouldn't post them anywhere. Which stink. But besides those & the ones of John's birthday party, I really haven't been doing alot with my Camera. I still love my camera,  I just dont know. A rut I guess.




So with that being said, My cat just got sick again. (side note, its really John's cat. I just pick up its puke. Lucky me.)

When Will I learn?

                           Went to a friends for dinner. No big deal. Had a wonderful time. But then Thomas said he wanted to go to Yankee's.......... She wanted to get a touch up priced, so I went with them. When will I ever learn?

I walked out about 30 minutes later with a new heart.... In memory of my father in law. A heart because he'll forever be in our hearts & the rebel flag because he was Southern...

Doctors Visit Will Lead to Bowling?

             Today John went for his five year well/ school check up. As I thought everything is up to date. He's in great health & Not to brag hes a smart little kid... I have to work on his writing skills, but other then that. =) He did great. Until they needed to prick his finger for the Iron test. He screamed. He wasn't happy. But I can't say that I blame him....
                Afterwards we went to Wal-mart. He spent his well earned money (Money he earns by doing chorus. He asked to be able to do them & for the most part keeps on them.) on a monster truck he didn't  have. ( shocking that we could even find one. ) & a set of hotwheels he didn't have. How he knew he didn't have them is a mystery to me. He has millions, but like always he was right. Found out that he really does remember everything. He remembers his visit to the Denist last year, right down to the Show he was watching & what it was about....

                     Cooked dinner, watched the new iCarly, & then him & daddy had a boys night out. Went Bowling. He had a blast. I was going to go too, but he really wanted it to be a "boys" thing. He misses his daddy. I couldn't hold that against him.



All in all it was a great ending to a day that started really crappy.

Sometimes the Quiet is Just Too Much

                     I've started a new post like a million times it seems, but never get any where near done before I'm jumping up to answer the phone, or John, or the door. Some days it seems like Life doesn't ever slow down. And then there are other days where the quiet is just too much to deal with . The house has been really quiet this week. & that's a good thing. Johns been pretty well behaved.... Thomas is either working or sleeping. Ive gotten almost fully caught up on my housework. I'm still working on that never ending cycle of wash. John's wash is done. Totally done.

                 Speaking of John, Ive been trying to get him to do more coloring, painting, whatever. He doesn't mind it, but he doesn't like it either. Its like pulling teeth. I can get him to have fun writing, or taking pictures, or learning. But when it comes to anything art like he has no will power. Blah. I think I'm gonna go to Wal-mart, & some other places to get some craft stuff. Hes been like this for years. & the more I try the more he pulls away. Today we tried to paint with some water colors, He HATED it. He got mad because there just wasn't enough paint on the paper he said. I think that sometime this weekend we are gonna go outside & finger paint...


The house is quiet, everyone & everything's asleep. I still have another hour to be up. I wonder what I can get done in that time?

Another..

Well today was yet another super hot day. It really sucked. Went out once to get some more angel fish. (All the Cullen's are there finally.) The picture is of the sky last night. I risked the heat to get out there. =) The sky was just really pretty with the orange, & the pink, & the blues. It was awesome. Too bad that it meant that today was going to be another hot day. Which it was. The sky was just as pretty tonight, but Ive got three little boys. Jon-Jon & two of his best friends so I didnt bother getting the camera out. Because if I went they would follow.

Thankfully it should cool down starting Monday...... But........... Starting Monday it will be rainy & stormy all week... Blah.

Gotta love Good Ole North C.

Sometimes I think I just want to get out of North C. even if its just for a little while. The drama, the fake friends, the B.S.  Today has been the most Ive been on the computer. I've been keeping away. I think thats best. It really sucks to get stabbed in the back by so called friends.

101? Really?

So between the heavy rains and the heat this week I really haven't been able to get outside. Nothing is getting done outside. One would think after 7 years of being in North C. I would have gotten use to the heat.... Days like this makes me miss Maine....

The After Math

Well The rain held up until the very end of the party on Sunday. The party was great. I think this is the best one we've had yet for John. Very little drama. Very little, lots of fun... Water Balloons, a sprinkler, good food & great friends!! Really what more could you ask for?

Although it was sad, because we all really missed Daddy, it was still a great party... I was able to see the home health care nurse that helped us with Daddy. She is one amazing woman.......

John had lots of fun. Made out like a little bandit, like always... =) He had so much fun... The cake came out great, which I was grateful. I couldn't get the picture to come out lighter, soo instead of putting a picture of John on the cake, we ended up ordering one, & just putting two Monster Jam trucks that John didn't have on it. It came out great....


Everything was great. I can't believe I was soo stressed this week about it.... My house is still a little on the trashed side, but I'll be taking care of that today.



=)

Now Im off to bed to see if I can get some sleep. Was about there once, but I heard a Nextel go off, which wasn't mine, or Thomas....; Not good.

Dear Rain, YOU SUCK.

                 So tomorrow is the big day, the day I have like a million guest roaming around my tiny little house, to celebrate John turning five.... Is anything done? Barely. The weather has been not be agreeing with me. Nor has my husband. So as Ive got most of the carport set up, the threat of rain comes & living in North Caroling, I figure its a threat, its not going to happen, you know why? Because it never does. Silly me. So I have just a little bit left to do for tomorrow & I got rained out. Not just rain, but Thunder & Lighting & a Pouring Down Fall. Yay. So not only tomorrow do I have to run out, get the cake, get the rest of the stuff we need, set up the decorations, but now I also have to finish cleaning. Thank you again Nature for having to prove me wrong.... Couldn't you have waited until Monday to prove me wrong? Please note Mother N. that tomorrow is my little guys big day & it  would be nice to not have it rained out, after all the money being spent. Thanks.

This week as been a bad week, or maybe its just today. A 8gb memory card for my camera, all the sudden refuses to work for me. It crapped out yesterday. So I don't know what pictures on it. So that leaves me with One 8bg & a small 4gb to run with for a while. YIPPEE. Blah. I've tried it in all of the memory card readers.

Behind my house

Side of my house

Front of my house

And a half picture of the tree frog that has moved in above my door.

He hangs out there all day, doesnt move, even if you open & close the door a million times.

at night he likes to talk,

& then He'll just be gone.

Only to come back the next day.

Five Years

Today Marks the day that my little guy came into this world. I really can't believe its already been five years. It doesn't seem that long ago. It really doesn't. Time sure has flown by. It amazes me how much he has grown, how much he has learned.  To the left is the day he got to come home. To the right is him at his first birthday party.

John on his second birthday. Opening gifts from us.

John making a wish on his third birthday

Muddy face on his 4th birthday

John today, laying on the floor laughing at me.

Happy Birthday to My baby.

Monday Night.

                So its Monday night. Little man has been in bed since 9:15. Thomas is sleeping. I have to get him up for work soon. My kitchen is finally clean. I torn it apart yesterday trying to clean it. I took everything out of the desk's filing drawers. I wanted to make a spot for all of Johns art stuff where he can get to it, while at the same time its not in his room where Others can get too it. With all the school shopping that we've been doing, its kind of a good thing. *Note at bottom*
               We've have  gotten just about everything needed. He only needs 2 boxes of tissues, & 2 boxes of Ziploc bags for the "Teacher Supply" list.  The official list hasn't come out just yet. But I think we got just about everything that John might need. Markers, (Normal Markers, Thin Markers,) Crayons (both fat & thin ones) Colored Pencils, Paper, (Bright colors, pastel colors, white,) A Binder, folders, index cards, fat pencils, thin pencils, notebooks, notebook paper, Kindergarten writing tablets...Pencil boxes, & cases. Glue sticks, bottles of glue. OMG the list goes on & on & on. We don't have many clothes to buy him either since earlier this summer I bought a bunch of jeans for him, that still have TAGS on them. *smiles* But of course I know myself so I will most likely buy a couple more pairs, & a couple of shirts. He already has never been worn (that still fit) short outfits. What can I say my little man is ready for school.


              His birthday is Wednesday. I can't believe hes going to be five. This weekend is his birthday party. & OMG the to do list. The lawn needs to be taken care off, The shopping still needs to be done. I don't know if Thomas told all of the guests or not... Eh. Sighs.














~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~SIDE NOTE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




                                The official needs list, hasn't come out yet. But the Teacher need list has. Its kind of sad that not only do we pay taxes, but now because they keep cutting the budget for the schools, we have to buy supplies, BASIC supplies like hand soap & baby wipes for the classroom. Its a shame that this keeps happening to the teachers. Its not right. Here's everything needed.


* 1 pump bottle of antibaterical soap
* 2 boxes of Kleenex
* 2 Packs of Ziploc bags. (1 box of Gallon, & 1 box of Quart)
* 1 Box of Fat Crayons
* 1 Box of baby wipes
* 1 small plastic pencil box
* 5 glue sticks
* 1 package of safety pins
* 1 pair of children's safety scissors (depending on teacher)
* 1 thin Kinder Mat




& we'll be randomly doing snacks for ALL students through out the year

Good Day.

So today is a good day. Thomas is still out on the road, & well Me being bored thought that I would take even more pictures of my little man and a friend of mines daughter. Feebee. She's a cutie. They had alot of fun playing & getting their pictures taken. I figured I might as well go ahead & get some pictures made while he's still four. Not that it matters much since, I take at least one picture of him daily. Ha Ha. I blame that on my mother for never taking baby pictures of my brother & I. *older* & only of my baby brother. I want John & any other child to know that They have them. Besides that I really like photography.

So Anyway Im here at the house by myself for a change. Ive got the radio *ipod* going. Enjoying the time. Cooking myself a small meal. Then its time to sit back & relax. Maybe watch a movie or two... Take a bubble bath. I honestly dont know. Knowing me I'll end up cleaning up some. The house isn't really messy, I just can't stand to see any kind of mess in living areas. *again I blame that on my childhood.* Anyway dinners on. so Enjoy the photos.