It's Time to Stop the Blame Game, & Place the Blame Where it Belongs

     The shooting was a horrible, tragic, endless nightmare. 20 young students where shot and killed. 6 adults died a hero's death trying to save those children. For what purpose? We will never fully know. Oh yeah the Media can give us theories and their spins on things (the media is a whole other topic. )

Did he do it because he was angry at his mom? Did he do it because he was Autistic? Did he do it because of video games? No one will ever fully know. Only he knows and that went to the grave with him. Now a whole Country is in mourning  along with those who lost friends, family, husbands, wives, daughters, sons, aunts, uncles. For what reason?

Many people would like to blame Guns. Yes it was a shooting, but are guns really to blame? In my thoughts no guns are not to blame. Yes that is what he used. But still, the guns didn't scream lets go and kill a bunch of innocent children today. People are the reason guns can be used in deadly force. Its time to stop blaming the guns and start blaming the person behind the gun.

Many would like to blame video games & movies.  But come on. Millions of children around the world play video games daily. Stuff like this does not happen daily. Its not the video games fault. Video games are a work of fiction, of fantasy. Many perfectly happy children play video games that are about shooting, and guess what, they still have compassion, they will not go on a rampage and kill a dozen kids.

Many in this case would like to blame the mother. But the Mother was shot and killed. Yes they were her guns, and yes they were legal. But why is she to blame? Her son was an adult. He made the choices he made that day. She did not tell him to go shoot the kids. She didn't ask to be killed. Why are we blaming her for her adult son's choice. If your child goes and kills someone would you be to blame? Maybe she did raise him right. & Maybe she didn't. We will never know. But again millions of children are growing up, or have grown up in horrible homes. Myself included in that statement. & Guess what,  I haven't shot, stabbed, or killed anyone. Why, because I make my own choices.

It is time to stop playing the blame game, and its time to place the blame where it belongs. At the shooters feet. HE MADE THE CHOICE. HE KILLED THOSE CHILDREN. HE KILLED THE ADULTS. Maybe there was something mentally wrong with him. But that doesn't mean video games, the media, or the fact that he may or may not have been autistic, the guns, movies, or his mom are to blame. .

If it was say a 50 year old guy, would you still be blaming video games or the parents? Think about that. Clearly there was something very wrong with this man, to do what he did. But you have to wonder, maybe the mother did everything she could... He was by all terms a legal adult. He is to blame. & No one, or nothing else....

May the world always remember the lives lost at Sandy Hook School. May the angels rest in peace....



( Please note that I have not or will not use the names of the shooter, the mother, or any of the children and teachers that were killed that day. I refuse to make his name more famous then it already is. I think we all know who I am speaking off.  I will not use the children's names because they were children. They shouldn't be plastered all over the media and websites. They should have the respect of resting in peace.)

Chinese Food? Books? Okay....

Today was a very busy day! Of what you ask? NOTHING. It seems the day went by so quickly && all I did was get errands ran. Which in Cat speak, that's running to Wal-Mart (because living in a small town thats pretty much the only place you can pick up things such as ALL MIGHTY PACKS and not pay a arm and a leg for them.) Then to the school house and then to the "Fish" store to pick up John's reward for bringing home a good progress report. (Its what he wanted, new fishies.)

So now I am ready to curl up with a good book. I already got some pretty kick ass Chinese food from these place my friend told me about. :) But before I do that I have photos to edit and a kid to get into the shower.

Baby Steps, Right?

Welp, Today I took out my camera, for the first time in a long time to just take pictures. No one telling me what they wanted, or anything like that. Just me, the camera & the front yard. :D I'm takin' baby steps. Thats it. Just breathe and take tiny steps fowards the healing.

First Things, First

Last night I got the wonderful Idea, that I just had to have my two nephews join my son for the night. Someone else tell me what I was thinking? Holy Loudness Batman!!! But I love them what can I say, even if I was woken up at 7:30 by screaming, ( I am not sure but I think the Autobots where attacking the bad guys.  I'm too tired to think of their names right now.) They are really great kids and I am lucky to have them in my life. Even if when they get with my son they drive me to drinkin (couldn't this morning, :( NO COFFEE CREAMER!!!)

 Anyway, I spent last night with my music, my photographs and oddly enough I am starting to feel a little bit better. Why Ive waited so long to work on my website I don't know. I think deep down inside it was because I knew I would see some photographs that I am not ready to see. & Of course I did. & I might have gotten a little teary eyed, but I kept them up. I can't change the past, those picture show a time in my life that despite all odds I enjoyed. they show a time in my life when everything was falling apart and I had someone strong to help me through it. & In the end it didn't work, choices had to be made and I had to do what was best for everyone. Blah, Don't you hate that. Even though I know the choices I made where best for everyone, part of me still cries for that time. & I know if you don't know me, you have no idea what I am talking about. Sorry. There's enough people in my world that know and can't wait to keep telling me about the other sides of the story. Or who wrong my choices where. It's better this way.

Today the plan is to keep the kids amused until a little after lunch && then head back to bed. for a nap. If the games not on. (Which reminds me when are the Pats playing?) Maybe take out the camera if the sky clears up some. Maybe edit some Photographs. Who knows the world is mine for the day....

Some of My Better Shots of the Past Year.

Well Over a Year, A Year of Strange, Heartbreak, Anger, && Moving on.

Well its been well over a year since I even opened this blog. I got so caught up with everything going on in my life, I never even thought to grab some paper & a pen, or even to log on here. Lookin' back now, I think I could have used it.

       I couldn't even begin to explain what all has happened to me this past year, some of my own doing, some my own mistakes, and some thrown on me from others. Looking back on this past year I know now that I am forever changed, & Honestly some days I don't know if this is a good thing, or a horrible thing.

My son is now SEVEN years old, it seems like yesterday he was only learning how to walk.

I am still married.

I am now 26

I rarely touch my camera, or listen to music.

But I know that I am slowly getting back into the habits. I need them, I think. I think my camera can heal me if I give it the chance,
              But then again I have to ask myself, do I want to heal from what I have been through? Some of it was so amazing, even if it did end, even if the events leading up too, and after were horrible choices I made, that I do not regret.

I learned A LOT of life lessons this past year, and honestly, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Would I do somethings differently? Maybe,  I know I can finally say I know the meaning of the word Regret, and the Girl who never regretted anything has a big regret that I am going to have to live with. I know the fault is mine and honestly, I wish I could change it but I can't...


Anyway that's it for now. I WILL be back soon.