Guns, Motorcycles and Perky In a Can.

I think the title sums it up. It was an all girls day, and we actually had fun. I didn't cry when I heard a few songs, although I fully admit I screamed Fuck as loudly as a could in a crowded area. Oops. I'm working on it. But seriously I put songs to people, and its worse when People send me songs.. That song will be forever tied to people. So when I don't want to hear it, trust me I dont want to hear it.

But I found a beautiful Harley.... 22 grand, which I don't have but its nice to dream.

I also only had one perky in a can. (Cat speak for a can of Monster) 

I also learned that guys get upset when they honk at you and you flip them off. But lets be serious for a moment in life. I am not an animal to be honked at. And if I am trying to cross a busy road, with two children, do not honk. Unless you are honking to let me know I can cross with the children. Thankfully they were teenagers. but still. Its rude... \

Blah. 

I can feel my mood, to my core.. I need to get away from North C. I need to just hop in my truck and ride until I can't anymore.

The Quote Hit Home

So I was reading yesterday, a cheesy free book off Amazon's free deals... Called Marry Me for Money, it was actually a pretty good book. Anyway there was a quote, and it hit home.


What's worse then breaking up with a boyfriend is breaking up with a best friend because boys could come and go but best friends were supposed to last forever....

Jan 3rd 2013 to May 19th 2016.. Life is Full of Changes

It's been a long time since I bothered to update this Blog. And honestly, so much as changed since my last post.

First and most important change, I had a little girl in 2014. She's amazing.. Both of my children are. My son took to being a big brother so well. He's amazed by this little girl who has everyone melting over her.

Second major change, I am now a single person. I never thought my life would take this turn. Life is funny how it works out. It was my choice. A lot of big things and a lot of little things made me make up my mind to leave my marriage. I am not sure where I am going in life. Its a little overwhelming to be a lone for the first time in my life.

I have always been someone's daughter, someone's wife, someone's mother.. Its a different feeling now. I don't have anyone else telling me what to do anymore. It's a wonderful feeling. But different. Very different.

Many things in my life are changing. So much at one time. I don't know how to deal with it all at times. Sometimes I just want to sit down in the middle of a hot shower and cry. But I won't allow myself too.,,,

I am learning I can do this on my own or rather with some kick ass friends surrounding me and keeping me from shattering as badly as I want too.