Back!!!

Oh yeah,, I'm back on my own computer. I can't even explain how excited I am to be able to sit here on my own computer & type. My keyboard. O, have I missed my keyboard & my pictures..!!!!! It feels wonderful. I can't even explain. You go so long with our own & then have to go to using someone Else's computer. NOT COOL!!!!!

I could have kissed the guy at the computer store if he had more of a personality. Oops. It was like talking to a computer.... *eye roll goes here*. Thomas laughed at me. Because I told him & the dude at the computer store that they were my hero's. O my computer how I have missed thee.

Thanksgiving....

Thanksgiving this year was once again Bittersweet.  It was a long but fun filled day. I spent most of the day with my friend Marilyn. I  hang out at her house while keeping track of the game. (Yea Baby the Pats totally kicked Lion Butt!!) Then we took off down to grandma's house for a little bit & then back to our friends house for there Thanksgiving. All in all it was a good day.

I guess I just dont like this time of year because of Daddy. Its really hard. Maybe next year will be easier. But with him passing away, his birthday & Thanksgiving all within the same week, its a hard time. (Daddy's favorite Holiday was Thanksgiving.) But It was good to remember the good times with him.



Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Day Daddy!!!

I can't believe a year has already passed us by

Its been hard without you

& tomorrow is going to even that much harder

But This year Im thankful for all the memories

that you left us with.

As much as it hurts,

I know that You're better off,

& are looking down upon us

with a grin on your face.

Enjoy your Birthday

&

Your Thanksgiving.

Today was hard, harder then Saturday. We took five balloons out to the gravesite & let them go. Each & every one reached the sky. It was bitter sweet... I know that this should be getting easier, but It doesn't seem like it. Theres not a day that doesn't go by that I'll think about him, or want to cry when I see a picture of him...

He might not have been my real father, but I couldn't have asked for a better father in law to have. He was an amazing man. && I wish he knows how much we miss him & How much we love him & think about it.



I made it through.

I made it through Saturday. It was killer, but I did it. I had some amazing friends to help me through it. Now if I can only get through the 24-25!!! I cried some, & laughed some & remembered some amazing memories. I just didn't think it would hurt this much after a year. I was wrong. I was really really really wrong.

I guess the saying is true. You never get over the pain, you just learn how to live with it.