Ever Forgot How Wonderful Something Was?

 Today was a good day in some ways. Yes Thomas was gone out on the road longer then he should have been. And yes my son was a pain in the butt! But Today I remembered how great it was just to walk down the street with a camera in my hand, ear buds in my ear. I haven't done that in forever & a day it seems. Amazingly it totally relaxed me. I had forgot how good that feeling was.

Yes I might have looked a little stupid to the people who drove past me, or watched me through there front doors, but It was GREAT. Stupid great. & I was only gone for maybe 45 minutes. I got some great shots.

When things got really bad with Daddy I kind of stopped doing things like that. I mean I had my camera, & I used it mostly in the yard or with John, but for the second time since Novemeber Im really really enjoying getting out there, using the camera. I can't explain what it does to me. And yes I know that Im not the worlds greatest, but theres just something that soo relaxing seeing the world through the eye of the camera. Corny I know.

I have always had a love for pictures/photography, but truthful I figured it was just a phase in my life. Like writing was. I havent written anything more then a blog in years. I use to love writing, If I had kept on my short stories in highschool & did what I promised & turned them into novels I would have been the one making a shit load of money not the author of Twilight. But alas it wasn't meant to be.

&& My love for photography is just growing stronger.

Im looking forward to looking for into the collage I choose. Hopefully Thomas & I can afford it, so I can get my degrees & live out my goals. Even though It kinda bugs me that people who never really cared for photography are now wanting to make it there job too. Sighs. O well

Anyway enough is enough, Im going back to doing whatever I was doing before I logged in...

Lots of Love.

Catie

New Website.

http://www.kathleendormanphotography.weebly.com/  is my new website. I got sick of Yola site really being a major pain in the you-know-what. It took forever to load my pictures. & to be truthful I really like the new site that Im using & am even thinking about making that http://www.kathleendormanphotography.com/ (no a real link yet.) anyway check it out. Leave me some feed back. Let me know what you think.

Collage?

              To be honest, I never thought that Id be the girl who goes to Collage for what she wants to do in life. Honestly I still don't know what I want to do. But I have been looking into Collages ((online courses really.) to figure it out. Its time I set a goal. I mean yes I have talked about it for years. So my goal, ((if I can afford it.) Is to start taking online classes in september. My course? Photography. I've always loved it. & I have been told time & time again that I have an eye for it. So why not just go with it. Try it out. Get a degree & make a living off of it. Even if I don't do anything but work for the local paper....((I can always work towards my own studio later.)

                 Anyway I think I picked a collage. aionline.edu. Photography. yep thats my choice. I talk to the lady tomorrow to see what choices I have, && then hopefully by Sept. Thomas & I can figure out if we can afford it...

Keep your fingers crossed.

Life.

Lifes been something else here lately. Yesturday (or today rather, since Its still the 20th as far as I know, because once again I can't sleep.) marks the two month mark since Daddy passed away. It doesn't seem that long some ways, & others it seems longer.

It doesn't seem far that we all had to pick up the pieces after his death... Its almost like he wasn't ever here, even though hes never far from any of our minds. I think about his daily, & there were times in the past week or so, when I've been running around doing things, that I stop & think omg I have to get home. Daddy needs me. I can't seem to stop that thought from running around in my mind.

John is the only one that is dealing with this the best out of all of us. He doesn't seem to be hurting anymore. He still wants to go out to see the stars everynight, to say goodnight, & once in a while he'll talk about him, but mostly he is going on with life.


I only wish that we could all feel that way....All understand it. I wish I could have that child like way of looking at things that have happend.


Thomas is still dealing with it. hes been moody, mean almost at times. & I know he doesn't mean it,. & since we've talked hes been trying to do better. Its just hard on him. Ive tried to understand.. I just want to be there for him, even when he is acting like a jerk.